ladydrace: (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!)
Title: Kissing Babies.
Fandom: Teen Wolf.
Pairings: Stiles/Derek
Rating: PG-13.
Word count: 4181
Spoilers: None.
Warnings: None.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything even remotely related to Teen Wolf .
Beta: Looked over by Steph. Thanks wife!
Notes: My first Teen Wolf fic, so not my best stuff. Sorry. Written as a birthday present for the lovely Maureen. Happy Birthday sweetie pie!
Summary: So apparently Derek loves babies. Who knew? Stiles sure didn't.

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ladydrace: (Write me bitch)
I only just realized that the last many fics I've posted... I haven't actually crossposted at all. I post them to Dreamwidth (and if the automatic crosspost to LJ works, then that happens too, if not, then I don't give a fuck.) and to AO3. I store everything on my website for my own ease and occasionally I'll pimp stuff on tumblr. But it's been months since I last crossposted to any communities.

When I became aware of this, my first thought was to feel bad. But then I realized why it happened. It's because I'm too busy writing to actually file stuff. I hardly finish one fic before I'm on to the next. I keep needing new betas because I (apparently) work them into the ground one by one.

SO THIS IS A GOOD THING!

YAY FOR PRODUCTIVITY!

(Also, I'm posting a WIP for the first time in years and omg, I have fans badgering me for updates, what is this surreal thing, is it my life, omg...)
ladydrace: (Painful Burning Sensation)
Title: Why the Hell Not.
Fandom: Supernatural.
Pairings: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG-13.
Word count: 859
Spoilers: None.
Warnings: Fluff in extreme amounts.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything even remotely related to Supernatural.
Beta: Looked over by the lovely Jo, because she's not afraid of cavities.
Notes:  College au. Massively fluffy ficlet inspired heavily by this tumblr post. Not kidding, your teeth might actually rot from this. Written as a birthday present for the beautiful Grace. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YOU FUCKING DISNEY PRINCESS!
Summary: Dean bemoans the sad state of his love life to his best friend Castiel, who is more concerned with his pathetic unrequited feelings towards Dean. But perhaps none of their problems are as big as they think.

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ladydrace: (Sam put on his own socks)
Okay, so. Shit is being done.

Got a new doctor. Will get an appointment sometime in October, starting from scratch, hopefully ending up with a new (and more accurate) diagnosis.

I've started swimming as part of a welfare program. Started out doing it only on Wednesdays and then doing some new age shit on Modays, but I liked the swimming so much (and hated the new age stuff so much) that I was allowed to change it so I only do swimming. So from this Monday I'll be swimming for an hour every morning 4 days a week and then meeting with my social aid on the 5th. Meaning that for the first time in... a long long time I'll be getting up every morning of the week for something not related to Pea. I'm not even sure I remember how to even do that. Wish me luck!

Either way, I can most certainly use the exercise, so yay for that!

Pea is settled in at the foster family and... that's a whole other story. Suffice to say that he's doing well beyond all expectations and that my grief is becoming more manageable.

Finally, fucking finally, after over 8 months of living here it is now confirmed at last with complete certainty that I can stay here and won't have to move. I've started some minor renovations, and when my step dad retires in October he'll come over and man the drill for me so I can finally hang some things. Like curtains and a cabinet and some shelves and some hooks. I got some money back from paying too much to the electric company so I bought some drawers and closets, which means I can finally put my clothes away, rather than just having them in piles in my bedroom. I never even hung posters in my bedroom because I was afraid of getting too settled in case I had to move again. :oS

My landlord is slow as a sloth and all the things he promised me to get done back in January are still not done. At this rate I'll do them myself, because fuck, I can't wait another year to have the leak in my door fixed. My heating bill is already going to be through the roof, fuck.

So. This is life. Right now.

ladydrace: (Free Hugs)
First of all, thank you SO much to all you wonderful people who sent me hugs and comments after my previous post. You have absolutely no idea how welcome it was, and I love you all for it, so very much! That said, this first week without Pea has been a fucking nightmare, and I have not been coping well.

But putting that aside for now, because today is the first day of me starting job testing again. I call it job testing, because I have no idea what the English term is, if there even is one. It basically means being put to work doing incredibly random things while you're on welfare, in the hope that some day you can return to the job market. I'm happy about it, rather than terrified as I've been in the past, but I suffer no illusions. I'm not aiming for a full-time job. If that's going to happen, I'll need a better functioning head. When or if that ever comes.

But there are options, depending on how much it turns out I'm capable of. I'm sort of gently aiming for 20 hours a week as a goal, maybe going as high as 25, depending on the tasks I'm given. Which is enough for a part time job, and with help from the county I can be vastly more independent than I've ever been in my life. So there's hope for me personally.

I'm starting out with 6 hours a week. Then in two weeks it's gonna be upped to 8 hours. Two weeks after that, 10. I'm excited to see how it goes.

More on my head and Pea in later posts.
ladydrace: (Phoenix purple x-men)
So, it's been ages since I updated here. A lot has happened and I think it's slowly sinking in.

Pea left home on Friday. The foster parents are super nice and call me every other day to tell me in great detail what Pea is up to. They say he misses me, but accepts the new situation well enough. Sleeps well, eats well and spends all day out on their wonderful grounds, climbing hills or walking in the forest or roughhousing with the family's only other foster child; a pre-teen boy.

They say he's wonderful, but I guess they're kinda obligated to say that. But then again, if he stays as super-cute as he was during the first visits, then he probably is a little angel.

I miss him so fucking much already.

I'm coping better than I thought I would. I haven't fallen into a complete depressive stupor, but I admit it's been kind of a struggle pulling myself together and doing things. But I try to get out of the door at least once a day (try being the operative word here), and I've made a list of fairly large tasks that need doing, which I have been putting off forever because Pea was around. So it's not too bad.

That said, I am constantly on the verge of tears and every time I have to pick up or move something of Pea's I get a serious twinge in my chest. Because this isn't home for him any more. And only God knows when or if it ever will be again.

There was a lot more I wanted to share, but... it still hurts too much.

ladydrace: (Richard S J Squee)
Title: Nooner.
Fandom: Supernatural.
Pairings: Sam/Gabriel
Rating: PG-13.
Word count: 528
Spoilers: None really, although it helps if you know who Gabriel is.
Warnings: Slightly older people making out in public.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything even remotely related to Supernatural.
Beta: Jo looked it over. Thanks babe! All mistakes are still mine.
Notes: Human AU. Part of the Dog Walker 'verse. Link to masterpost. This part takes place several years later in their relationship.
Summary: Sam decides to shake things up a bit..

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ladydrace: (Seriously)
Title: A Place in Time.
Fandom: Supernatural.
Pairings: Dean/Castiel
Rating: R.
Word count: 10.053
Spoilers: Set post episode 5x4: The End, so spoilers up until then and perhaps the rest of season 5, just to be safe.
Warnings: None.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything even remotely related to Supernatural.
Beta: [livejournal.com profile] tli_productions ! Thank you dear! All mistakes are mine.
Notes: For [livejournal.com profile] mithrel ! I'm so sorry this took so fucking long! Hope you can forgive me, and that it ends up being worth the wait!
Title inspired by the theme song from the TV show The 4400.
Summary: Dean is breaking inside after Zachariah's trip to 2014. Castiel decides to do a little time jumping of his own to find a more hopeful future to tell Dean about.

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ladydrace: (That shit was all me Gabriel)
Title: Wings - Best Show in Town.
Fandom: Supernatural.
Pairings: Sam/Gabriel
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 8380
Spoilers: None.
Warnings: Prostitution.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything even remotely related to Supernatural.
Beta: [tumblr.com profile] otsanda did an expert job on this! Thank you, love!
Notes: This fic is thanks to a lot of people. The idea was originally put in my head by robinasnyder, and I should totally have spent the time finishing the sequel to Gabriel is a Dead Man for her, but I was under pressure! UNDER PRESSURE I TELL YOU! Not least of all from all my Waywardshippers pals who poked and prodded and offered filthy suggestions all the way.
Summary: Dean takes Sam to a particular nightclub for his birthday, and it turns out to be a night of many surprises when a very special offer comes Sam's way.

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ladydrace: (Oooh you don't say!)
Title: Practice, Practice, Practice.
Fandom: Star Trek DS9
Pairing: Garak/Bashir
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 1791
Warnings: None.
Beta: [livejournal.com profile] tli_productions  Thanks dear!
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own any Cardassians or Doctors. *sigh* Not mine. At all. Oh, I only wish.
Summary: To maintain a level of excellence in any skill, one must practice constantly.

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Bad day.

Jul. 16th, 2013 02:17 pm
ladydrace: (brb dying)
*chanting* One bad day does not make me a bad parent. One bad day does not make me a bad parent. One bad day does not make me a bad parent...
ladydrace: (Default)
Title: A Time of Magic and Stuff.
Fandom: Supernatural.
Pairings: Sam/Gabriel, Dean/Castiel
Rating: R (to be super safe)
Word count: 3775
Spoilers: None.
Warnings: None.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything even remotely related to Supernatural.
Beta: [livejournal.com profile] mithrel looked over the grammar for me. All mistakes are mine.
Notes: This is utterly self-indulgent pulp. Don't expect historical or scientific accuracy here. And yes, I'm well aware that Sam is a teenage girl in this. Just roll with it..
Summary: Sam is a royal wizard's apprentice in the capitol, but clearly the universe hates him. Not only do all his spells go wrong, he also manages to fall head over heels for the most annoying, reckless and chaotic wizard in the city.

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Update.

Jul. 10th, 2013 12:32 pm
ladydrace: (Is this my life)
So good news and bad news.

Good news: Turns out the lady from the county had something of a brain fart when she told me I wouldn't see Pea for six months. She seemed very shocked that she'd even say such a thing, because apparently the usual wait time is something like 3-4 weeks, and in that time I can most likely visit, so... *breathing again*

Let's ignore how she almost seemed to think it must be me remembering wrong. Uh, no, I most certainly would remember that. I even asked at the time if that could be right and she assured me it was. AND I took notes. *moving past it.*

Bad news: My wallet got stolen. There was practically no money in it, but having all my cards replaced? That costs. Especially my driver's license. *le sigh* As if I wasn't already broke. Not to mention the bureaucracy and paperwork. Jesus.

Good news: We finally got taxi service for Pea and he's taken to it like a duck to water. Happily took the trips all on his own from day one. The fact that it took almost 4 weeks to get the request through and we'll only have need of it for 2 weeks... whatever. *moving past that too*

Bad news: B and I are testy with each other for a lot of reasons. Personally I think he's just being an ass, but logically I assume it's the pressure getting to both of us.

Good news: Pea seems happy with the idea of staying with the foster family.

Bad news: 4½ weeks left...
ladydrace: (Driver picks the music)
Title: Eat Me E.L James.
Author: [personal profile] ladydrace
Reader: [personal profile] ladydrace 
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairings: Sam/Gabriel
Word Count: 7205
Duration: 58:56 Mins.
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: D/s theme. Fairly vanilla, though, for something in the BDSM spectrum.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but my voice.
Summary: Sam never knew he was so submissive. Until he met Gabriel.

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ladydrace: (Driver picks the music)
Title: Getting To It
Author: [personal profile] ladydrace
Reader: [personal profile] ladydrace 
Fandom: Person Of Interest
Pairings: Reese/Finch
Word Count: 1547
Duration: 11:06 Mins.
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: None.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but my voice.
Summary: How time passes waiting for Harold.

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ladydrace: (Driver picks the music)
Title: Sounds Like Heaven.
Author: [personal profile] ladydrace
Reader: [personal profile] ladydrace 
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairings: Dean/Castiel
Word Count: 867
Duration: 06:22 Mins.
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: None.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but my voice.
Summary: Dean never thought he'd say this, but he was really starting to like average sex.

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ladydrace: (Write me bitch)
Title: Getting To It.
Fandom: Person Of Interest
Pairing: Reese/Finch
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1547
Warnings: None.
Beta: [livejournal.com profile] mithrel ! All mistakes are still mine.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own any ex-CIA agents or any genius billionaires. Dammit.
Notes: This is a gift for Mithrel, because she's being unusually patient with me and my broken promises to finish stuff for her.
Summary: How time passes waiting for Harold.

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ladydrace: (Driver picks the music)
Title: Loving Yourself... Kinda.
Author: [personal profile] ladydrace
Reader: [personal profile] ladydrace 
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairings: Gabriel/Richard Speight jr
Word Count: 2311
Duration: 16:15 Mins.
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: None.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but my voice.
Summary: Gabriel accidentally ends up somewhere he didn't expect and meets someone surprising. So of course he takes advantage.

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ladydrace: (Crap)
I think I'm moving on from online communities. I haven't checked my f-list here in weeks, I follow 0 people on tumblr because it's too much effort to keep up with anything, and the only people I follow on Twitter are my sister, celebs and like 5 other random people. I am so so sorry if anyone here feels neglected or ignored. It was never my intention to hurt anyone, truly.

It just seems like my life is piling so much on me right now that keeping up any sort of social life, even just online, is just too much hard work. And I need my energy elsewhere right now.

I still write fic, because bottom line it's therapeutic to me. Same with blogging. It doesn't matter if no one reads it, it helps to write stuff down.

Things with Pea are at a painful standstill. We're put on hold for the holidays and holy crap it's awful.

On the one hand I'm pathetically grateful to get this time with my son before it's too late, but at the same time it's fucking torture. There is nothing to look forward to, and because Pea's situation is not permanent I can't apply for any help, financial or otherwise. All I can do is drag myself through the days and hope Pea can't tell from my face how much I cry.

I'll just have to take it one day at a time, I guess.

ladydrace: (Sexy Dean)
Title: Sounds Like Heaven.
Fandom: Supernatural.
Pairings: Dean/Castiel
Rating: R.
Word count: 867
Spoilers: None.
Warnings: None.
Feedback: Yes please.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything even remotely related to Supernatural.
Beta: Sala and Steph looked it over for me. Thank you, lovelies! All mistakes are mine.
Notes: Domestic one-shot.
Summary: Dean never thought he'd say this, but he was really starting to like average sex.

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