ladydrace | Personal updates and pregnancy rambling.

First of all, I am now so pregnant that I can't put it out of my mind for a single second. This might sound silly, but up until now, I've been able to simply forget that I was pregnant until I bumped my belly into something or got kicked in the bladder. But now I'm so big that the length of my arms (or lack of same) reminds me constantly just how pregnant I am. Also, when I look down there is this very uhm... prominent globe in the way of the view of my feet. It pokes out far more than my boobs and typing is a whole new experience because I need to sit differently to reach the keyboard over my belly. It's really weird.

Despite my rather frequent whining I think I have surprisingly few pregnancy troubles. A bit of nighttime heartburn (cured with mentos, oddly enough), tender breasts, some pinching pains in my hip area if I make a bad move (quite the turn off, I might add) and general tiredness. So basically, with only 3 weeks to go until a birth would not be considered pre-term, I feel quite confident that the birth will go smoothly. Meaning with few or no complications. I am starting to get a little nervous, but that's only natural. After all, birth isn't just something you go ahead and do. The physical and emotional stress is going to be a huge challenge, and I'm doing my best to plan things in order to minimize my anxiety if it chooses to strike at the worst time.

Hubby and I took a guided tour of the labour ward (dunno if that's translated properly, but you get the point) and damn, am I glad we did so. It was a bit upsetting with all the gear and stuff we were shown for the 'just in case' scenarios, and I'm really glad we got to see them before the whole thing starts. I hope very much that I won't be running off to the hospital at the first sign of contractions, just to be sent home again to wait. Of course, I have no way of knowing just what kind of sensations to expect, so I am prepared for the typical nervous first-time-mum jumping the gun. Just.... hoping I won't.

Other than that, we're slowly getting ready. In a couple of weeks we will pack THE BAG. You know the one with a change of clothes, mommy's favorite snack and stuff for the newborn. The only other thing we're really planning, is how and when we contact the family. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother. But I know that if I call her and say we're having the baby, she will come to the hospital and not leave until I've provided a kid. And honestly, I don't want that pressure. Plus, the first few hours or so after the birth, I would like to just rest a little and enjoy our little treasure before showing it off.

Actually, in that respect, I'll be hitting the mark exactly between my sisters. My eldest sister had the whole family waiting in the hospital the last 5 hours of the birth and we were allowed in while the nurses were still cleaning my sister and the baby. I couldn't do that. Honestly. My other sister on the other hand refused to see any of us for a whole day after the birth, not even calling my mother until like 12 hours after the birth, even though her in-laws were invited in only an hour or so after the birth. (It's a long story, but my mother and my middle sister have... issues.) I love my mother and want to present her with her 5th grandchild as soon as I feel up to it, which will hopefully only be a few hours after birth.

A funny thing is that my pregnancy bible says that in the final weeks before the birth, it's not unusual to be feeling the 'nesting instinct'. I've been feeling that, all right. I'm making bigger and better plans every day for how I want to arrange things. Where I want to crib to be, how to arrange room for the clothes and toys, where to sit while nursing and all kinds of other things. Hubby is being really awesome about it and indulges me hugely. And even though I'm feeling throughly unsexy, he still can't keep his hands off me. If that isn't love, Ladies and Gentlemen, I don't know what is!

Hubby must be feeling a bit nesty too though, because he brought up the subject of moving to a bigger place before considering child #2. So we've been looking at ground floor apartments in the area with a little garden and stuff. Since it's in the same category as our current place, we can get another one relatively fast if we sign up to move after the birth. We'll only have to wait like 6 months or something maximum.

Enough about the pregnancy!

I'm thinking of allowing myself to start a few of my more persistant plot bunnies and see if some of them might be finished. It probably won't hurt me to let my WIP folder be for a while. Just because I can't finish my epic fics right now, doesn't mean I never will. And I have SO many bunnies fighting for attention. If just one of them could summon a muse, that would be awesome! So fingers crossed that I'll get some more writing done soon. :o)

Oh and my newest icon obsession is quotes. This one is Eddie Izzard. Very fitting to the rambling posts. :oP I'll probably post a whole new load of icons tomorrow with quotes from all kinds of silly things. Stay tuned! Always use protection and don't do drugs!