For fuck's sake...

[ladydrace]

Holy hell, the funk is back in town. I'm so fucking low right now, I can't seem to do anything but sit here and cry. I have to take Pea to the doctor in about 4 hours and I'm in a complete panic over it, which in turn makes my brain tell me what a terrible mother I am, that I should never have had kids, that I'm a sorry excuse for a human being and should just let B get full custody.

Fuck.

It's time for the benzos, clearly. Why couldn't I have my breakdown in a week where I DON'T have Pea?!

Fuck you, brain. I want my life back.