Time to throw in the towel.

[ladydrace]

Back in the day when I discovered DS9 and the joys of Garak/Bashir, I managed to find and read pretty much every fic still available on the web in just about a year's time. Of course, every now and then something would crop up that I somehow missed, or someone would write something new, but it was pretty rare with months in between.

So I got it in my head that I would be able to gather sort of an archive of Garak/Bashir fics. Just links, making it easier to look for and share fics with my fellow Garak/Bashir fans.

Had things stayed like they were then, I might have been able to pull it off, but several factors have now finally forced me to admit that it was a way too ambitious project for me.

First of all, I should have been self-aware enough to realize that other fandoms would arrive and take some of my time. I'm still a major Garak/Bashir fan, and I could probably singlehandedly run a G/B ficfinder blog if anyone actually needed something like that. But most of my energy lies elsewhere these days, both in my personal life and in other fandoms.

And then of course there's the glorious fact that Garak/Bashir isn't nearly as dead as I'd thought. New fics seem to be written almost weekly these days, and while that makes me very happy, it also means that my hopes of keeping up with the influx of new fics (and the constant changing of links and closing of pages in the internet) pretty much impossible.

So I've decided to give up on my garakbashirfics comms on livejournal and dreamwidth.

I'm going to leave them open for a while, in case someone wants to take over the projects, but I doubt it. Instead, I think I will make it a sticky post on my journal (and maybe even on the garakbashirfics too) that anyone interested can have my entire folder of saved fics sent to them. I try to save pretty much every G/B fic I've ever read, so while the search option will have to be abandoned, the material is still available.

Comments

[ex_mrs260625]

It's important to take care of yourself first, and being honest with yourself when your priorities shift or your energy level changes is something that gets lost in a lot of people's self-care. So thank you for creating and implementing the idea in the first place, and thank you for remembering that you are more important than just your fannish activities. :0)

I'd rather have you stick around and enjoy G/B with us than begin to hate it because you felt obligated.

[ladydrace]

Yeah, that's a large part of it. There's a lot of newer G/B fics I haven't even read yet because I felt guilty about not feeling up to doing anything with the project. And I don't want that.

And who knows, maybe some day I'll get my second wind. ;o)