Can this be over soon, please?

[ladydrace]

This is just getting harder every day.

Things are really awkward between B and I right now. They took a turn for the decidedly worse when he read my LJ entry yesterday. Well, if he's unhappy about it, he could always try and talk to me instead of the floozie. But instead we're waging some sort of silent warfare. Personally, I'm tired of talking. Now I just want this shit to end. And I refuse to be the one to open every goddamn conversation and take the initiative for every little thing. I did manage to wrench out of him yesterday what he wanted to do with internet and freezer. So far, so good. Still no more boxes packed. 3 days to go.

Meanwhile, I have arranged for babysitting of Pea during the move, dumped loads and loads of things at second hand stores, emptied several bits of furniture he will be taking with him and I'm generally still separating our stuff whenever I have a moment.

On a funnier note, my mother practically had a fit of hysterics when I told her I'll probably throw away our sad excuse for a sofa before the move, so we can have more room to move things around. I have another couch waiting at my mother's but it won't be here until later. But her response was something like this: "But... but... then you won't have a couch! How will you do without a couch!?" Like it would be a serious risk to my health not having a couch for a few days. *rolling eyes*

Comments

[mrs-picard.livejournal.com]

Some people DO depend on a couch. lol (I don't. I like comfortable and soft leather chairs much better!) They find it hard to understand that others can actually live without a couch, lol.

Hang on there, my friend. *hugs* It will be over soon-ish and then you'll be able to live your life with Pea and B will only be a visitor from time to time who picks up Pea or brings back Pea.

[lady-drace.livejournal.com]

I have a bed. What do I need a couch for? I don't even watch television. (Unless it's online, that is...)

Oh yes. Counting down. *hugs*

[taricalmcacil.livejournal.com]

He forfeited all right to be pissed with you when he didn't keep it in his pants. Doesn't matter what you post on your LJ, he broke his vows. You and Pea are the victims here, not him. If he's so worried about his image, he should have considered that before he slept with floozie.

[jonnycarnahan.livejournal.com]

Well said. I agree and also, I would change the locks. He'll make a menace of himself and just give you lots of grief if you don't. Do you want floozie having access to the key to your home you share with Pea?

I know how hard all of this is for you. But you are doing so well with all the sorting and packing you've done! The hardest thing for me was trying to function and get things done with the depression. I just wanted to crawl into a hole.

I gave in a lot ... I just wanted it to be over, so I made a lot of sacrifices. I wasn't firm with him when dividing important personal items and now I wish I had been.

It's so hard to stand up for yourself when you've had all the wind knocked out of your sails. But do try to be firm and don't let him get away with anything. You'll be much happier later and that is what really matters.

This all sounds too much like a lecture, but that is not what I intended. I guess in a nut shell, I wish I had not taken the path of least resistance.

Big hugs, Boo. Really big hugs for you.

[lady-drace.livejournal.com]

I doubt he worries about his image, considering that I've never kept anything in our relationship secret, even on LJ. I suspect he was more hurt by the fact that I didn't talk to him directly. But I'm just so fucking tired. I cannot do it all, or direct it all or arrange everything. He has to take some initiative himself, or I won't survive this.

[prelocandkanar.livejournal.com]

Here, here. As the others here have said, you're the injured party. He did more than break a promise; he broke a vow. You have all the power to call the shots.

And yes, I second the suggestion to change the locks. It's a wise step to take.

[lady-drace.livejournal.com]

I doubt he'd even dare blame me for anything. He knows he's guilty like hell and he feels it. Should he get angry enough to start with me, I'll be more than happy to finish it. I also think that between us, I'm the better "debater". Meaning, if we get into a fight, I'll steamroll him. And he knows it.

Wow. What a long way I've come. A year ago I was hardly able to say no and now I'm putting my foot down every other day and allowing myself to get angry. I'm gonna pat myself on the back for this one. :o)

[mithrel.livejournal.com]

COUCHES ARE NECESSITIES, DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT? LOL!